She Speaks!

It's been a while, I know.

As much as I've wanted to write over the past few months, I've been having a real struggle with trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do with myself. I love being a wife and mother. I love being involved with my church and my family.
And I love to write.
I want to write.
Desperately.
But I'm stuck. I'm stuck and I don't know which way to go. I have been feeling over the past few months that it is my calling to write. That somehow, somewhere, through some sort of outlet I am supposed to minister through the written word. It seems as though the more I try and push those thoughts aside as wishful thinking and crazy talk, the more I feel the Lord leading me to open my ears and LISTEN ALREADY.

Then that I start with The But's.

But what if I'm hearing You wrong?
But I wouldn't know how to start.
But I don't know what to do.
But I have no idea which direction I'm supposed to take.
But what if I look silly?
But I'm just not sure.

But what if I fail?

And so when I stumbled across this while going through my blogroll today, I considered that maybe it's the answer - or at least a starting point. The She Speaks conference is hosted by the Proverbs 31 ministries and is an opportunity to join with other women and "recieve the tools and the confidence to answer God's call on your life." This is a conference for women who feel called to speak, write, lead, and influence. Hmmm. That sounds kind of familiar. When I first read about this opportunity my heart raced a little faster and my stomach got a little nervous.

Then, I started with The Maybe's.

Maybe this is the answer.
Maybe this is how I will know if I am hearing Him right.
Maybe this is how I will start.
Maybe this is where I'll learn what to do.
Maybe this will give me direction.
Maybe this will help me to not feel so insecure.
Maybe through this I'll know.

Maybe I will fail. Or maybe not.

I checked the location - only a little over 3 hours away! Very do-able!
I checked the dates - before vacation and after Bible School! Very do-able!
I checked the speakers - BooMama and BigMama and Rocks? Oh, so Very Do-Able!
I checked the price - $525.00. Um - not so do-able.

I found that Lysa TerKeurst is holding a contest for a scholarship. Winning this would probably be the only way for me to be able to go - if it's His will. The scholarship covers the entire $525.00 registration fee which includes the conference, the hotel, and meals. I'm turning this over to Him. I will continue to pray about what I'm supposed to do. If it's His will - I'll be able to go. If it's not, well, then I won't. The winner will be announced on Monday, February 4th.

So really? This decision making process isn't that hard after all!

To read more about the conference - click here.
To read more about and enter the scholarship contest - click here.
To tell me how much you want me to be able to go to this conference - click here.